Well, last week, with days of insanely faint HPT's in my hand, just like last time, I lost it. I was sure this pregnancy was going no where. It really was a strange HPT taking experience. I got a tiny smudge of a line on 2 different tests at 8dpo and a very faint but clear line on an EPT at 9dpo. At 10dpo it was slightly darker. But the evil FRE was still flat out negative. I am quite adept a seeing lines where they are not, and there were NONE.
11dpo, the EPT was the same as the previous day. FRE finally showed a barely visible line. 12dpo the FRE looked exactly the same as the day before. Not even the tiniest smidge darker. Even S- was concerned. I promptly melted down, sure it was over.
But being the crazy that I am, I could not stand to not pee on something, so later that day I broke out the OPK's. I'd tried them a couple of days earlier and got a clear but faint line. But this time, the OPK test line was dark! So I took my little behind strait out to the drugstore and bought a new 3 pack of FRE's. I peed on one as soon as I got home, and lo and behold there was a clear line. Still pretty light, but much darker than the one from that same morning.
In the meantime, I had learned on Friday that the insurance company had again denied our application. After I sent a letter explaining that I had not, in fact, received any infertility treatments in the last 3 years (their initial justification for denying us) they came back with a laundry list of other reasons we are un-insurable. Fine, no infertility treatments, but we still take issue with your PCOS and its treatment with Glucophage. And even if we could get past that, we would have a problem with your history of ADD, acid reflux, miscarriage, and abnormal paps. This response led our insurance agent to say our only hope was group.
A bit of a nightmare, but there is a very big silver lining. With group, they cannot deny me because I am pregnant. Now that I am, that's huge! Also, I have maternity coverage under my current plan and it is through the same company that so rudely denied my application. So I decided to rack up as many charges as possible in the meantime and off I went for a beta.
At 14dpo, the beta came back at 134. That sounded great until I looked at my previous numbers. In both pregnancies I was tested at 13dpo, so I used the doubling time to come up with a 14dpo number. For DS it was 265, for the m/c 75. 134 is a lot closer to 75 than 265 but I am staying optimistic until I get the next one back, hopefully tomorrow. To console myself for a lack of results today, I peed on another FRE and the test line is as dark as the control line, maybe even darker. That has to be a good sign, right?
So there it is in a very long nut shell. I am hoping, hoping, hoping.
Sounds good to me :-) I also had a m/c after a low beta (mine was 29) - yours doesn't seem too low. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!
Posted by: Rachel Inbar | February 22, 2006 at 07:20 AM